Decision

I am afraid to talk about this topic because i know the answer to it. And it really makes me feel helpless when i know how your reaction will be when i began to do the whole rewind-and-play thing again. It just feels meaningless to let you listen to things that things over and over. You advised me to follow my interest and encouraged me to pursue it but i didn't dare to leave the comfort of familarity. Or perhaps i just wanted to do something that was recognized by my parents. Well but the truth is that it is a realization that came a little too late.I will keep my mouth shut about this from now on because it's no one's obligation to listen to my complaints.

It is only at this point in time now that i begin to see the whole situation very clearly, almost as if from a third person objective.

But there's no point crying over spilled milk and i have made up my mind to do well in what i chose. The next step is of course how to approach the subject with the right attitude. Yes and better time management of course.